Liar.

When someone tells you something you generally believe them. It's not often you find someone you trust in a lie. Well at least this is what I thought until I encountered a hypocrite. This is also when I came to the conclusion that some people are all talk and will do anything to make a particular group favor them or even for simple attention. Other the past few years, I have grown to love a job; theurpuetic riding. It's not something I even few as a job and often work for the emotional fulfillment or physical connections I am able to make with special needs children. One of these connections was with a guy called Bo. I meet him at a church gathering when he was boasting about a riding program he ran! Come to find out the farm he was speaking of was the farm I worked for. Being someone who hates controversy, I simply smiled and walked away. But under my smile and within my thoughts were many ugly words. This individual was literally taking ALL the credit that my co workers and I had earned. He was spitting out statics right and left about the turnout of his program! While all the people listening stood, listening, and applauding his hard work, I sat in pure disappointment. This guy had no idea what went on at the farm. Our mission was to rescue horses to rehabilitate children. His mission was to throw away any person that couldn't function "normally." when I finally spoke up, I simply asked what is normal? He looked puzzled. I said " because I have been working for the program who speak of for over 3 years and we have nothing close to normal. Every chd comes to us longing to be perfect. They have physical, emotional, or even mental challenges. They struggle to be normal so they don't get trashed by people like you. And as for our horses, they are far from average or "normal." even one of them have been given a second chance. They were horses who were going to be trashed but instead they have become exceptional characters who save lives of more people than you convince with you lies. So next time you go to brag about a farm you have never even been to, you may want to check who your talking to." The gentlemen had no response. I suppose this is not a direct example of hypocrisy but to me it is the definition of lying and betrayal. Everyone should be what they speak.

Enough is Enough

Life? Life is full of journeys and learning experiences. I have learned to live by the quote “Everything happens for a reason.” I have a strong faith and try to remain close to my God. But why must we go through trial after trial when some seem so unnecessary? Does everything really happen for a reason?

Life is about learning, love and fulfilling enjoyment. It’s about giving our best at everything we engage in and passing along happiness to those around us. But if this is true why must tragedies happen? Why must ones we love pass away? Most say it’s to teach us to cherish moments and love more courageously. This to me is not an acceptable answer.

It makes me afraid to love, afraid to attach myself to those who surround me, and afraid to make my life a part of someone else’s for fear of hurting them. For three years, I tried to keep everything to myself because of a four lettered word; fear. Fear causes actions, actions cause reactions. The action of losing someone caused me to attempt to hold everything inside.  Until I was reminded that life is a journey with a purpose of learning…..with ups, downs and maybe even some upside down circumstances. It takes bad times to make you appreciate the good ones. It takes admitting a mistake to realize you have a problem.

No matter the problem, you always have to remember that someone, somewhere always has a bigger issue with more outstanding conditions that are unmatched to your own. Pain is only temporary but pride, promise, and love are forever. Always tell the ones you love how you feel and always provide happiness to yourself and others. Never underestimate the power of the Lord. I’ll never understand hurt or fear but after all it’s just a journey...  

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